Confusing...

I really don't know what is the relationship I have with her. I thought I can treat her as a best friend, but it turn out that I could not. The more I try to suppress my feelings, the more I can't control. I feel I am betraying a friend's trust, but I still don't have the courage to tell her how I feel. I fear that I may lose a friend.
I hope I could do it in a mutual way, maybe I should wait for a good timing.

To go against my feeling

All of a sudden today, I found a once lost feeling.
The last time I felt like this is 4 years ago when I fell in love with my ex-girlfriend.
But sad to say, the person that let me have this feeling is not an appropriate choice.
What do I meant 'not appropriate' is because she is attached. I don't see that I have any chance and I think this will not get anywhere too. I will only hurt my own feelings in the end.
My friend Jasmine is right, I should have realise it earlier, but I think I already in too deep now.
Maybe is my retribution now.....