Stupid guy

I thought my next post will be a week later.......
So friday is over, she not free and reject my invitation.
I guess this was it, right?
Saw her on msn, say hello to her and she went offline.
Didn't reply my SMS.

Well, try to convinced myself that she not ready due to her recent break-up, I guessed I can't lied to myself anymore.
A fact is a fact, can't denied.

But does she really need to go to that extend to avoid me?
Why not she just tell me upfront that is impossible. Less some imagination for me.
Just because I say that I have feeling for her and it will cause the end of a friendship?
It's sad to be rejected, but it even pathetic to lose a friend in this manner.

I come across a article that say women will avoid a man if they know he got feeling for her, no matter how close they are before.
I think its quite truth, no exception for her, Although she tell me she won't.

Am I a loser?
Am I pathetic?
Or am I stupid for all the things I done for her?

情義決﹐愛難求

情義決﹐愛難求

Going about....

Sometimes I begin to doubht myself that for what I doing for SH, is it really that I like her alot or for my ownself's stubborness.

Alot of my close friends had advise me to give up as they know that I'm not the type she want.
I really wish to listen to them, but strangely I think there may still a chance if i hold it a bit more longer.

I had send a bouquet of 7 pink roses to SH this valentine. I didnt get a direct rejection.
She only smile and say don't know, its better to stay as friends she said.
Well I think I get it And Justin say since she already decide, maybe its time to let go.
I am considering it now, but still think that one should not just give up upon first failure, should at least try again.
I had ask her out this friday night, where she say see how then.
Should get my answer by that time.
Hopefully.
From the look of what I have written, I think...
I really like her alot......

For a happy world

Try to have a chat with SH this week, but no luck.
Surprisingly, I not much abit disapointed, neither I happy about it.
It seem like I am losing some part of me, but I guess I am slowly back to myself.

When I saw Shulin cry today when she thought she couldn't get into air stewardess, I'm lost of words. Don't know what to say to her.
But I decided to send her an sunflower to cheer her. Quickly ask San to add in today delivery where it cost me some surcharge because of the sudden order.
When I jus complete the order, she told me the Airline had call and she was selected.
I was happy for her, but feel sad too as she the second to leave after Jasmine.
Well, although she got the job, I still went ahead with the flower delivery.

She was happy too received the flower and I am glad she like it.
To see her happy, I think the charges is worth it.
Sadness is much more suitable for me, not for her.
I wish that she will stay happy for the rest of the year with her new career.