Will it be better?

Just read Justin's blog, seem like things are getting better for him.
Feel abit dissapointed on myself as I think I not doing better.
Guess I not ready enough.
Although thing have improved and my feeling is not that worse compared to last time.
But I still don't have a good direction of what I should do.
More of like I don't know what I want from life or who I really like.
Ever since all those "tragedy" happen, I am clueless in what I doing.
Life to me is like come & go. No requirements like that. Just going with the flow.
To like or love a certain girl is not in mind . Maybe all those events had make me lose faith in Love.
To me, is like, so what you like somebody. It doesn't get anywhere if the opposite party is not interested.
Why should you bother to do that?
Maybe you may think I just a loser that cursed & swear because I can't get it.
But I know myself I'm definitely not.
Strangest things is, I start to feel comfortable with this type of living.
Don't know is it good or bad.
Or is it really very bad to have this type of mindset.
Haiz.......

Maybe I am waiting for someone to spark up my life.
Don't ask me who is it, I don't know. Just waiting for my future to come
Waiting for my lifespan to expire......
Just live as comfortable as I could. Don't want to be in a mess again.